Sometimes I feel as if I like my bf a helluva lot more than I like him. He is more affectionate, he likes to reach out more to me esp when I'm stressed, and he does little sweet things for me. Although it hurts for me to think this, I do want someone who I know for sure I will have a future with. It's been 6 months and still he hasn't said I love you to me. We've talked about it and..it's when I blew up on him. Ok I shall share that story as well: it was the day of my organic final and I blew up b/c I just wanted to go to the kitchen to drink some coffee and have some breakfast. It was a fucken mess. I'm always doing the dishes, cleaning, blah blah fucken blah. So I went nuts. I was stressed and of course it was no good way to ask someone to be a bit cleaner. But he said he sometimes does feel as if he loves me but he feels as if love is more than emotion, it's commitment as well. Which I do understand. I'm scared myself of making that commitment. Yes I do feel the emotion strongly but do I feel as if the relationship is stable enough for me to say I love you to him? No. But it could be b/c I've never felt this way about someone before. I've never been so happy just being next to someone and I've never been as affectionate.
Ok. it must be b/c I'm on my period right? Riiiight. Studying is going to commence in 30 min.
