Black mood

I'm in a very bad mood. I really resent working 6 out of 7 days. Never getting a break and not being able to complain out of pure guilt. My parents I'm sure would hire someone else if they could but the toll of taking 5 classes + not having enough time in the day to study is sooo fucken stressful. I'm always tired..

Recently my mom got into contact w/my sister again. Months ago my sister typed up an as for me to post up on a korean website and we haven't heard from her since. I neglected to email her back (after all, I got other shit to worry about) so my 34 year old sister took offense and did not bother to contact us b/c of this. My mom got all bitchy and started bitching abt how I should've emailed her back and blah blah blah.

Fuck her and fuck my sister too. I've fucken kept my mouth shut about doing all this shit for them out of the goodness of my fucken heart. My brother and sister could've really fuckeen helped out if they wanted to. Instead since we don't have money they don't wanna bother us no more. I'm sick and tired of this fake concern bullshit. My parents always ask me: r u ok? R u ok to work? Wtf. R they gonna fucken let me off if I am? If I'm too fucken tired or I gotta study for an important test are they gonna give me some time off? Hell no. I don't even know why they bother to ask. Its alwways so damn irritaiting.

Of course since my mom might actully get upset and cry I won't ever complain but act pissed as hell. Seriously sometimes I wanna say fml.

Even today my mom was pounding some meat for galbi and she was commenting on how I should be doing that for her. Wtf?! The fuck do I need to fucken pound meat for you for?! I fucken work for you, clean the fucken house, the fuck else do I have to do? I just hope I really don't blow up soon...