Failure @ life

So once again I have proved that I am a failure at life. I had to drop both Chem and Chem lab due to the fact that I failed both of my 2 exams thus far. I dropped Spanish as well because of a stupid stupid stupid mistake and now I feel like shit. Poo on me. No more going out next semester...cuz it is seriously fucking me over. I already know what I have to take next semester. Chem lec online, Chem lab and Spanish online. I don't know what other classes I will take. I'm wary of overloading myself like I did this semester.

Now I just have to work hard at getting a B at Calculus. I highly doubt I can make an A. And I know for sure I can make an A in history. Actually maybe I'll take the second half of world history next semester. I need to make as many A's as I can to boost up my GPA. Sigh. I fucked up again.

Watched Paranormal activity yesterday. Oh my JESUS! That shit was sooo scary! I am literally scared to sleep cuz I don't want some ghost/demon thing creeping up beside me and stroking my hair and shit. I am so freaked out I could only sleep for one hour.

I decided for next semseter I'm going to try to buy my books with my own money. I feel too guilty for wasting my parent's money. I can't get another job cuz I have to help out at the store but the least I could do is to pay for my own schoolbooks. I sure as hell can't afford the tuition.

...So tired...

Oh yeah, I broke up with Tommy and I'm trying to make it final. Yeah yeah I say that all the time I know. But this time I'm actually miserable with the decision I made. Yes I know I can't be with him forever and Yes I hurt him again. Maybe I'll go back to him who knows? I'm just going to try for sure this time. Ehhh maybe.

Sutra this Friday and The Geisha House/Primal on Saturday! YAY! I'm ready for the weekend and it's only Monday....